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In some ways I grew up fast, people always told me I seemed wise beyond my years and I looked like I was well into my twenties as a teenager. In some ways I'll never grow up. Someone told me once that growing up was the worst decision a person could make so I've tried to avoid it. But I still had to go to college and I still have to work for the rent, now that I'm graduating I'm confronting that fear again.

Sometimes I really have my ducks in a row and other times I'm a total spaz and weirdly people seem to see both sides. I never noticed until just recently how much I have the personality of an artist. I have a very hard time doing anything when I'm uninspired, I'm diagnosed ADD but I think I really just lack inspiration because when I start painting,  filming, scrubbing the grime out of the bathtub or whatever I can easy do it non stop for hours. During finals I stayed up for three days with absolutely 0 hours of sleep and only enough food to keep me alive. I was dillusional & I wouldn't suggest it but I got my work done.

Anyway growing up is scary, work is scary scarce right now and I need to do a lot of adult things, make money, start career, buy a house while still maintaining a bit of the spaz-itude that makes me me.

It's crazy how all my friends are going through similar transitions now. Seems like just yesterday when all that mattered to them was getting drunk and getting laid. Now it's paying their mortgage and getting married.
This is a picture of the ol' gang at Missy's wedding.


 I took the picture so you wont see me in it.

It's good to have friends, especially since theres going to be fewer and fewer of them down the road.