atilla

We didn't sleep well last night. Not a one of us. Cameron was tossing and turning, I was overcaffinated and kept sitting up and smacking him telling him to knock it off! I can't sleep! He's too big and take sup the whole bed and his knees and elbows are always all up in my back. The dog was jumping on the bed trying to snuggle and kept getting punted off because she's an annoying leg sleeper.

The dog is schizophrenic as far as I can tell. We have the same name which is creepy and whenever I take her for a walk I always run into a friend or someone who asks our names and then looks at us cockeyed when I say "I'm Hannah, She's Hannah Beth". She's Cameron's dog. He named her before I came along but I tell people he was a stalker and named his dog after me because he was obsessed with me. Only the stalker part is half true, he had an uber crush on me and I brought him out to a dance party one night and kissed him. We've been together for a year and a half now, live together and he's coming home for Thanksgiving.

The car will be full. 3 rats, maybe 4 if I get the new baby in time, the cat and the people. The dog has to stay, there is no room for her in the car and she will chew up all of my parents' nice things.

My cat, Lydia doesn't meow. She chirps like a bird, makes that little purring squeak with a question mark at the end. BrrrRRRRR?? Most often she screams. Like a piglet. That's when she is demanding something, and she's a very demanding cat, like food or play time, but usually food.

The rats are adorable. Groucho is my old man, he only eats baby food which I feed him twice a day with his medication, or the special pieces of rat food that I pick out especially for him. Brillo and Mouse are rescues. They are enormously fat and really enjoy yogurt treats. When I feed them through the cage they reach out with their tiny hands and grab, grab, grab at it. Rat's are impressively strong and they use their little hands and arms a lot. If you try to feed them something that they don't like they will push your hand away and make an icky face. It's priceless. When trying to wedge behind you they will push and shove with their whole bodies and they easily move me. They easily move Cameron who weighs 190 lbs. It's impressive indeed.

I just bought a $20 orchid as a prop for my film.

They just serve as a constant reminder that beauty is quickly fleeting never to return. They need more attention than most people can possibly give, they're difficult to understand and they will never bloom again if you don't have an entire understanding of them.

I dated a boy that was like that once. He was obsessed with orchids and they were all beautiful and blooming until they stopped and never bloomed again, just sat in their pots until they whithered and died. Pretty much just like him.

If you can't take care of a plant, you can't take care of a person, a relationship or yourself. I'm a firm believer in this. Don't date a boy with dead plants. Run away.

A prize of my praise for anyone who gets my whitty title. I'm voting Lexidiem gets it first, he's a clever one.

My hair is turquoise on the bottom now. I'm pretty into it but I'm so lazy that I'll probably do a crappy job of keeping it up. The blonde part is begging for a toner, lookin' all icky and gold. Here's a silly picture of me cheesing in my bathroom.

It's too bad you can't really see my amazing sparkly unicorn shirt.

Wow. I watched Tila Tequila's MTV show for the first time tonight. I didn't even know she had a show (I don't have cable) so that was an interesting surprise. I'm am shocked at how trashy they allow people to be on tv now! It's all thongs and butt cheeks hanging out and girls that wear shitty bright pink lip stick with red shirts & ugly bras hanging out. It's bad... I used to be all about the trashy contest, whatever trailer trash moves you can pull and get away with makes you that much more awesome, but these girls are in a different universe... seriously Tila, you can do better.

I honestly think I like the boy that used to be a girl best. He got all emotional when that one girl lunged at the other one. That's another thing: girl fights are amazing. I'm so into it. Girls pull the gnarliest shit in fights, hair pullin', failing, side punches. I'm pretty sure I could have taken either one of those girls though... 

I'm so exhausted from the first two days of shooting. It's kind of pathetic. I'm really stoked to be making a film that I wrote and am dirtecting but I really did NOT want to produce it. Having a producer would take an enormous load off my shoulders but i'm working with 0 budget and folks are just too busy. So I have to schedule, shoot on location at my house, set dress and style all of the actors myself. I'm a full time student, blowing off school to finish this thing. The long hours are the major reason that I don't want a career in the film industry. Stills are my favorite. I can be a control freak and still manage the amount of time and efforts needed to make it happen.
Oi.
So now I'm going to play video games and hang out while I have the time. Shooting again tomorrow.

I'm a serious rat enthusiast for all who didn't know. I have three boys right now and I spend more time doting on them and giving them treats than any of the other thousand things I need to be doing because, well, I just like them better. They are so fuzzy wuzzy snuggley and cute!

Brillo just won a rat halloween costume contest for http://www.pamperyourrat.com. It's very exciting and all of the contestants' cuteness made me squeal with delight!

Hey folks, Atilla here. There's some things that make people internet rock stars and some things that make people good people. I guess I dabble in both.

I'm already a model so I don't need internet fame to do that. In fact my opinion is that all of life is DIY and I never fell victim to the recent fad of believing that life's purpose is to make pretty people famous for no reason. I don't model to be famous or for my own vanity it just happens that I'm an artist and surround myself with amazing artists who like to collaborate and I never wanted a carrer based on beauty, it seems frivolous and unfulfiling but I instead found my true passion for art direction, set building and story telling through photography. My fulfilment is in working with creative people who want to share their visions and I am persuing creative advertisement as a carrer path.

I am a filmmaker, artist, model, set designer, make up artist, professional but I probably pride myself most on being a good friend and a good person.

I think it's immensely  important for me to lend and open ear to those in need of help whether they are a friend or stranger. As a victim of prior abuse I know how much people want to reach out to others and yet how difficult it can be so I want to help people bridge these gaps in their lives and let them know that there is support everywhere they look if they can just tune in to it.
I am a pet owner and animal lover with lots of volunteer hours under my belt and my heart bleeds for little critters in need!

I'm probably not the best candidate for e-fame, I don't like drama and I'm pretty open about my personal life because I'm a real person. I don't like doing drugs, partying all night, stirring up controversy, trading friends for more famous friends, feuding or talking shit. But I do like to entertain! So if you like real people that are entertaining but honest... I'm your gal.